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hi


i'm totally fucked..


hi


i miss you



hi


i really miss you



hi


you are the world to me


hi


you hurt me


hi


i like you


hi


you make me laugh


hi


i like bagging you


hi


i love your hugs


hi


i like pool-ing with you


hi


i can't trust you


hi


i'm sorry


hi


i can't get you out of my head


hi


bye.







which one are you?

190510

go away

ive changed a whole heap. i seeem so speechless at times, never knowing what to say. ive lost my creative flare, lost my vocab or words and advice. lost my ability to want to learn and study hard. im getting worse and worse. i cant even blogging. cant even be bothered writting anything, beacsue i dont seem to be able to get those throughts into words. whats wrong with me







i was going to study, start my assignment one hour ago. instead im sitting on my parents bed, typing this stupid blog.













'oh i cant take this anymore' viviena said.
'i just cant be bothered doing anything, why cant it just be the holoidays already!' 
she said as she let out a deep and long sigh. 
'why cant i just be a kid again, hmph'
it was dead stilent and still, you could hear the rattling and scattering of bugs searching for cumbs. the soft flutter of moth wings, attracted to the bright glowing light. then relisation hit her, ' even if it were the holidays, i wouldnt be doing anything anyway...'
even the stale bread, dripping taps, cracked doors and walls knew this. is wasnt only her. 


viviena would wake at the break of dawn, the sunlight streaming through the hole bitten curtain, like little lasers shooting at her face. 
'another morning, another mask' 
as she stumbled to the only sink located in the kitchen, she found sheets of unfinshd work. she stared at them, not making a single move, like it were a bomb ready to explode. carefully and slowly she lifted them up and knew what was comming.
'i am so screwed, again' frustrated and dissapointed, once more. so this is how her parents felt.
vivenna grabbed hertattered bag with only a blunt pencil, lose paper, unfinished homework, keys and $5 in her pocket. she tripped on her untied shoelaces, cursing at them as she brushed herself off. 


oh those glamourous cars, lucious blonde locks, flawless skin and branded clothing and assesoriess. 'i wish' she thought to herself. 
with her hair in a tight bun, to tight that you would think her eyes were natrually slaightned upwards. vivienna has a beautiful set of aqua eyes that would glow and enchant all those whom bothered to notice her, she had long messy uncontrollable brown hair that covered her detailed and petite face. her nose and lips matched her face, creating a calm am peaceful balance, she was a beautiful girl, its just that all she needed was to know that. poor girl, never showed had the courage to relaly open her eyes. 


'late again?' teased ms.walker, raising one eyebrow. 
'and im guessing your dog ate ur homework aswell vivienna?'
she blushed to a pink knowing that her covered was blown. she slowly made her way to her desk, grabbin random sheetsof work to seem asthough she knew hwat they were learning. 
vivienna had always beeena day dreamer, staring at the cloud wondering, hoping, dreaming. making up impossible senarious in her mind, the same one again and again.