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pop pop pop pop pop!
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ive lost my words. ive lost motivation. inspiration.
i am just soo ceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebs

sleeep in. wag school. dont do homework. game game game game game. download download download download. tv tv tv tv tv. music music music music. eat eat eat eat eat. sleep again.
YASS!

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fml.

no matter how many times it has happened,it still hurts.

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best night of my life
tturtle. crazy

so fun, so exhilarating, so crazy, so awesome. first time its felt so fun, maybe its the unknown people, maybe that i know that i wont be remebered, maybe it was the place, oh the furry floor, the stripey walls, the animal print carpet. damn that palce was epic. maybe it was the drinks, all i have got to say in 3 weeks time, its round two.
-poke peck pash
-drink adgr;hjkl

never ever ever ever ever again


. your so sensitive sometimes. it drives me insane.

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hey,

i'm sorry for not being the best friend out there. i should be better at making you smile and cheering you up, but damn i dont know what has happened to me. i've just got nothing to say. i dont know what to say to help you. i'm sorry for being so useless. but even thouhg i cannot always say the things that cna make you smile, i just hope my presence is enough.

if i could have my old talents back, and say those encouraging helpful things like asthough they were lyrics to a song i would. if i could give adivce again, i would. if i could somehow be a better friend, be more supportiveand truely help you smile, i would do everything and anything to make that happen.

you are so utterly important to me, you are the most special best friend i have ever had. and i know that this will last, unlike those that just fade in and out.
iloveyou

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of course you'll be thinking of me,
cos your name is cindy li.
and you better have a good birthday,
because last month was may.. o-o
gonna be happy and get presents,
...while i chill with my angry parents.
miss your passionfruit cheesecake,
wanna have it on my plate.
its real sad to not be there,
think im gonna get a nightmare.
but you know what else is crap,
this un-planned, made up rap,
but its totally making you tap
people, so peace.

catherine YO.
26/6/10

i love you catherineluu

i miss you shitloads 

when i read this my heart was filled with pain and happiness, knowing that you still remember made tears flow from my eyes, reading that you still care andmiss  me made me wish you never moved, wish i did more. how things would be diffirent if you were here. i love you, i miss you so much, if only you knew.

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hi


i'm totally fucked..


hi


i miss you



hi


i really miss you



hi


you are the world to me


hi


you hurt me


hi


i like you


hi


you make me laugh


hi


i like bagging you


hi


i love your hugs


hi


i like pool-ing with you


hi


i can't trust you


hi


i'm sorry


hi


i can't get you out of my head


hi


bye.







which one are you?

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go away

ive changed a whole heap. i seeem so speechless at times, never knowing what to say. ive lost my creative flare, lost my vocab or words and advice. lost my ability to want to learn and study hard. im getting worse and worse. i cant even blogging. cant even be bothered writting anything, beacsue i dont seem to be able to get those throughts into words. whats wrong with me







i was going to study, start my assignment one hour ago. instead im sitting on my parents bed, typing this stupid blog.













'oh i cant take this anymore' viviena said.
'i just cant be bothered doing anything, why cant it just be the holoidays already!' 
she said as she let out a deep and long sigh. 
'why cant i just be a kid again, hmph'
it was dead stilent and still, you could hear the rattling and scattering of bugs searching for cumbs. the soft flutter of moth wings, attracted to the bright glowing light. then relisation hit her, ' even if it were the holidays, i wouldnt be doing anything anyway...'
even the stale bread, dripping taps, cracked doors and walls knew this. is wasnt only her. 


viviena would wake at the break of dawn, the sunlight streaming through the hole bitten curtain, like little lasers shooting at her face. 
'another morning, another mask' 
as she stumbled to the only sink located in the kitchen, she found sheets of unfinshd work. she stared at them, not making a single move, like it were a bomb ready to explode. carefully and slowly she lifted them up and knew what was comming.
'i am so screwed, again' frustrated and dissapointed, once more. so this is how her parents felt.
vivenna grabbed hertattered bag with only a blunt pencil, lose paper, unfinished homework, keys and $5 in her pocket. she tripped on her untied shoelaces, cursing at them as she brushed herself off. 


oh those glamourous cars, lucious blonde locks, flawless skin and branded clothing and assesoriess. 'i wish' she thought to herself. 
with her hair in a tight bun, to tight that you would think her eyes were natrually slaightned upwards. vivienna has a beautiful set of aqua eyes that would glow and enchant all those whom bothered to notice her, she had long messy uncontrollable brown hair that covered her detailed and petite face. her nose and lips matched her face, creating a calm am peaceful balance, she was a beautiful girl, its just that all she needed was to know that. poor girl, never showed had the courage to relaly open her eyes. 


'late again?' teased ms.walker, raising one eyebrow. 
'and im guessing your dog ate ur homework aswell vivienna?'
she blushed to a pink knowing that her covered was blown. she slowly made her way to her desk, grabbin random sheetsof work to seem asthough she knew hwat they were learning. 
vivienna had always beeena day dreamer, staring at the cloud wondering, hoping, dreaming. making up impossible senarious in her mind, the same one again and again.